Diabetes is a full time job. Us diabetics cannot, at any time, take a break. We cannot resign, nor can we retire. It is a full time, permanent job. A diabetic has to act as his/her body’s pancreas 24/7, 365 days, for the rest of his/her life.
Most people don’t actually get that. Most people think that the job only starts when we prick our finger, put the drop of blood onto the strip and then inject ourselves. Most people think that the job then stops once we have completed this process, but that’s where they’re wrong.
Diabetes is a FULL TIME job. And, like any other job, there are the bad days, there are the VERY bad days and there are the good days, where we grasp and cling onto each moment like it’s our last breath.
People who don’t have diabetes probably aren’t aware that us diabetics get so excited when we see a reading on our tester that’s within our target. They don’t know that the moment we see a good reading it feels as though we can take a deep breath and smile for just a moment. They don’t understand what it feels like to put the drop on blood onto the strip, close our eyes, hold our breath and just hope or pray the reading isn’t high.
Some days are tough… I don’t know how else to put it. Some days, all we can do is burst out into tears, sit with exhaustion weighing us down and beg God to just help us and be our strength. Our bad days are not, in any way, a sign of weakness though. Those are actually the days we fight our absolute hardest. And even if on those days we feel like giving up and resigning from the very tiring and emotionally draining job, we don’t. We make it through those days. We keep our heads up, we keep trying and we keep going.
This is to all you other diabetics who are fighting a battle that most don’t understand:
Keep your head up, keep trying and DON’T GIVE UP! You are strong and you have got this!